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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

yay.. so fast its tuesday again.. hahahaha time REALLY FLIES when you are working HARD.. hahahahahahhaha..soon its wednesday.. and REST 1 dAY .. HAHAH work 2 days again and REST 1 day !! WORK 1 day again.. and REST 1 day (CHIRSTMAS) HAHAHAHAHAH..

then its END OF 2007 (:
let the sad 2007 year past and welcome year 2008 (:
hope everything is getting better.. its getting better for me and my family now.. hahah.. i mean the things.. and everything inside.. i dunno what to say.. anyhow only la.. haha..

next year?? haha.. another new year for me (:
new mission'
new quests'
new items'
new objectives'
new WISH-LIST'
new !!!

hahahahahahaha..
but what is it.. ITS SECRET (:
no point writing down here.. as long i know can le.. hahahahahahahahahaha..
not everything i can get.. im not rich nor normal.. im poor.. im weak.. im useless.. that's why im still Single till now.. girls now adays like rich guys and strong guys.. if a girl likes me for no reason.. there's something wrong.. either wanna eat me.. or cheat me.. but nvm.. i've already experienced this b4.. so forget it.. i dont want to bring out all this craps out again.. makes me piss off and angry.. and sad.. can't imagine that i didn't eat, didn't sleep for 1 week+.. what a noob.. ok let's forget it.. no point crying over a bitch.

i've been searching from the woods, and hiding from the hills.. LOL
lame-ed..

ok so what happen today.. i guess nothing much.. woke up and had my "bee hoon" for breakfast.. den went work.. haha.. luckily the bus came in time.. hahahaha. and guess what i saw that girl/guy again today.. haha.. i dont know if she/he is a guy/girl.. LOL.. but 90% girl.. from the face you can tell.. but she has short hair.. LIKE S.H.E Ella... haha.. cute lah.. everytime board that bus sure can see her inside.. and alight the same place as me..
oh god why did i type.. my typing speed is too fast.. LOL.. my hands are useful for keyboards, game controllers, piano.. hahaha.. if i lose my hand one day.. i rather die.. LOL..

my hand is useful.. but brain is not useful at all.. why am i so stupid/blur/cock/noob/kid.. so childish.. is this my life?? since this is my life.. then i should accept it.. no point changing.. and ignore what ppl say bad about me.. haha.. but i can't change my age.. too bad.. im 21 .. but i tell strangers that i dunno.. im only 16.. HAHA.. im so bad.. haha.. say 21 they also will shock.. so small size.. 21 years old.. LOL.. so just heck la.. 16 is the best.. hahahahah.. now holiday alot school kids.. go around survey people.. all the survey(S) that i done.. i put 16 years old.. and fake telephone number.. haha.. .. im not bad.. but i dun wanna put my real info.. put fake.. they also got money to earn.. at least i helped them to fill in.. and not ignore them.. hahahahahahahahaha..

sometimes i really wanna see my book of life.. i believe every human stepped into this world has such thing like book of life.. ur life is already created in a book.. now you are like a Windows Media Player.. just playing the book.. everything is planned for you.. till the day you leave.. everything is inside the book.. now we are just reading the book.. till the last chapter.. last page.. and there goes your life.. haha.. but i dont know if this is true or not.. but i believe in it.. its already planned and written in the book of life.. so what's is yours.. you will never know.. and of course.. what is yours.. its yours.. what is not.. it will never be yours.. no matter how hard you try/do, since everything is in the book of life.. you can never read what will happen next day to you or in the future..

that's why i said, sometimes i really wish to see my book of life.. haha.. lol..

i dont know why i land in this world for.. there's no target.. no achievements.. no goals for me at all.. i do have.. but none succeeded in my life.. everything went half and half and half and half.. and stopped.. i can never succeed any things with full succeed.. everything is half.. half half.. even my english now is half.. hahahahahahah.. im lacking of confidence.. i have no confidence.

why am i living here.. lol.. what's the point.. why do people look at me.. and stare at me.. i still couldn't get the idea.. look and stare like as if im the president of Singapore.. is there any secret things in my book of life?? what will i become?? what will i do?? what is my fate?? where is my fate?? why am i here suffering?? why am i here living happily?? why am i here living so lonely and sad?? I DONT KNOW.. i really dont know.

there must be a reason..
like there must be a answer to a question..
so there must be a reason.. why??
who can tell me?
i really dont know..

haiz..

hahaha.. im not sad or what.. i just throw out.. what i wanna say.. but always forget to post.. hahahaha..

AHHHH IM SO SIANNNN.. :(
no one to chat with.. i only have 1 friend.. hahahaha can YOU REALLY BELIEVE IT ?? !!
ok nevermind.. now its the time kill enemies in UT3 (Unreal Tournament 3) hahahahahahahahah.. GAME GAME GAME !!.
i siao already :(

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
ok cya.. will post tmr.. or LATER (:

ja