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Monday, October 15, 2007

ok let's start, im finally 21 years old today.. i tell myself to write a simple diary or what you call it blog or whatever, anyway just a simple one.. it can improve my english, and also if one day i lost all my memories, i can retrieve back here.

so what's happening today?, yea its my birthday, as usual i have no one to celebrate with. come on its MY BIRTHDAY, no one wishes me.. except for my family members.. why? because i have no friends, im lonely.. , but i believe more people will wish me when they see the what friendster reminder.. if not they dun even know its my birthday.. and most of all.. i think she has forgotton my birthdate.. kinda sad.. she told me her phone was confiscated by her mom.. till her O' Levels finished.. will you leave me? why are you so cold towards me.. always never reply what i ask you. im really very hurt and sad.. i even cried sometimes.

well i better not spoilt my keyboard, my tears are already flowing down whenever i think of her..

let's start on others.. i didn't slept on 14 octorber, was RS-ing.. till my Priest is level 74 already.. lol pretty cool wif the new armor .. Priest dun look like priest anymore.. & also my level 32 archer.. very style skill.. Raining Fire.. like maplestory that rain fire skill lols..

den was setting this blog around morning 5am+ , finding blogskins.. edited and started (:

, eh.. was suppose to DotA with nubkid.. but den he flat so early.. what a noob.. lol.. so i make my first & last blog ever.. i know its kinda late for a 21 year old guy to start blogging.. but at least i started (: those mei mei or di di must teach me how to blog.. coz i noob at blogging.. nv use b4 so i hope someone can teach me lol..

I promise i will write this blog almost everyday, with tears, with happiness, sadness, lots more..

whatever i can write i just write. im so bored, im useless. im sad. im hurted. im lonely.. why must i have to be like this? why? im like a frog alone in the well all by myself.. there isn't anyone with me.. there isn't anyone taking care of me or willing to take care of me, there isn't anyone at all.. can you feel my loneliness? why am i born in this world? what for? for what?

ok i guess im going to buy breakfast to eat.. so i went back.. damn.. roti prata stall wasn't open... so went to buy bee hoon to eat.. with chicken wing & hotdog.. and beancurd.. so went back and eat..

after eating.. continue to blog, saw my sms.. my sister even send me a happy birthday sms.. lmao.. where we were just beside each other not far away.. than after tat i saw this in my email..

HAHAHA, wholivesnearyou.com send me a happy birthday card.. lol.. thank you wholivesnearyou.com after finish checking.. i went imserba & ipmart-forum, for those who dont know what's these 2 sites.. they are website/forum that allows you to download games/application for your phones.. so went there download a few games.. and installed in my N73.. so many games liao.. over 70+ games already i think.. lol.. but heck la.. just install more.. =) .. den left 30mb+ space liao.. must do housekeeping soon on my phone..

ok its 9am now.. im about to go get some sleep.. and wake up in the night.. pretty weird huh? people birthday.. all celebrate.. but me?? nope.. i sleep.. haha.. no one to celebrate with.. so yea.. good nite all ! "i should say good morning all ! "

i woke up at nite around 8pm den eat cake.. yea my small birthday cake tat mom bought..looks pretty childish.. but i dun mind.. lol.. at least a cake for my 21st birthday.. oh ya.. also i like this .. (HL MariGOLD Strawberry MILK) .. sweet & taste good. i also like the chocolate one.. but i dun like the normal one.. will make me vomit if i drink too much.. after that, i went bathing.. den RS-ing till 2am, got my Priest to level 75.. so hard.. than check my mail.. and recieved another..

and also login into my Battle.net Clan den realised that zXRedXz's birthday is today too.. i remembered he told me he got the same birthday as me haha.. than i forgot.. zz.. than we wish each other ;) lol.

oh ya and also thx to xorbc =) , for wishing me.. hope Clan Mega, you guys fight strong in DotA and let this 21 years old chief retire soon. ok.. i guess i'll call it a day.. 1st day only so freaking long........ 364 more days to go before my another birthday.. by that time i hope i wont be in this situation.. haiz..,

people has already wished me.. but she still have not.. i think she forgotton my birthday le.. i was so sad.. does she really love me?? or what?? im really confused.. please help me someone.. i hope she wont break her promise.. but it seems like she is going to break those promises.. i can't do anything.. im as good as useless.. what my grandma told me is true.. most of the surname "ONG" dont live good.. they dun get a good life.. i dont believe in all these things.. but now i start to believe it..

so why are we here for? what is our mission? why?? i dont know why im here for.. might as well die and gameover it..

ok enough.. im so SAD .. i hope i wont wake up tmr, just let me die in my sleep.. i'll stop crying here and end today.