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Monday, October 22, 2007

OMG.. what THE **** are you doing jackson?.. why because of all these and you end up like this?? you can't carry on like that lor.. look.. god give you a wonderful life.. you live it happily.. and not destroy it ! YOU HEAR ME?? ! you are counted very lucky yourself to have a life.. .. come on. 1 life !.. live it happily.. why be like that ?? ..

HAHA.. its me larh.. jackson.. i typed these all myself.. i dunno why.. when i was on my bed.. suddenly god came down.. or guardian angel.. or whatever lah.. ! someone slapped me tight in my mind.. i suddenly woke up ! finally woke up ! lol !! , it was like so powerful.. so amazing.. LOL.. i suddenly dun feel sad anymore.. i feel damn good and happy ! well.. he/it/dunno what's that ! told me alot of things.. i dunno what's that thing LOL ! but it told me ALOT of things !, im going to write down here le..

ok.. someone just woke me up ! , i dunno who lah .. really !! must be god? guardian angel? !! im not MAD ! so .. err.. dun worry LOL !.. i dunno why im laughing now LOL !

i had fell down from the stairs.. and hurt myself.. why should i not get up and cry? oh man.. im not a kid anymore ! come on GET UP AND CLIMB UP !! yupps ! that's right right right right.. LOL ! im right.. he's right.. its right.. i guess EVERYONE including HER.. dont wish to see me in this state too ! am i correct ???!?! RIGHT !! HAHA =D

if i keep on like this.. no one can cure me.. ONLY myself can cure myself !! IM A PRIEST !! yupp ! i love being a priest if you know my gaming life ! =P
i tell myself alot of things ! since god give me this life.. im going to live it happily from TODAY onwards ! i'll remember this date forever in my life.. god revived me ! YAHOO ! =P
im not dead anymore HAHA !

im going to change my life.. seriously !.. im not jackson anymore.. i'll be a new jackson (:
i promise, i will, and i can.. IF YOU BELIEVE IT YOU WILL SEE IT !
now i believe in myself.. i will see it myself..

ok so what's today ?? TODAY is my BIRTHDAY.. but in the Chinese Calendar lah.. so can count this day as my new life day ?? oh man.. god god god.. for the past 20 years !!.. why do you come now !! on my 21st birthday and you woke up me.. you resurrected me ! why so late !! AHHH !! LOL.. but nevermind-ed !.. thankew to you ! i promise you i will change.. thanks to you.. i love you !

look.. you gave me a beautiful life actually.. you gave me a very good heart.. im caring.. kind.. faithful.. helpful.. and .. alot alot alot more lah.. im going to put in my profile on the left side !

IM GOING TO BRING MY GAMING LIFE TO THIS REALITY WORLD LIFE .. and of cause... no !!.. i dont go to church.. LOL.. not that priest LAH ! DUH !.. i mean.. er.. HOW TO SAY !!? diao"-.o" .. okok whatever lah.. im going to make people around me happpy ! yea ! IM A PRIEST.. i will cure them and heal them when they are DOWN ! i believe i can.. and i WILL..

lonely?? i dont feel lonely now.. i feel special.. im totally different from other people.. god has given me a mission.. my mission is to be a priest.. live happily.. in this case i will find my things back.. and get my things i want!.. correct or not?? if i continue in that SAD life.. who will cure me?? NO ONE ! i can't wait for people to help me.. that's a total failure.. i dont want to be a failure.. no way im going to be ! NO ! N , O !

really seeing those post i posted last few days... omg wth ?? i dont even know i wrote those... god had taken away my sad life.. or should i say dead life.. those posts i posted.. are not me.. its gone.. ITS DEAD.. im new ! WELCOME ME ! =D
but anyway.. i'll keep those old post.. since its there.. just let it be lah..

"Look on the brighter side of life, what is yours is yours ...what is not yours cant be yours...so live with NO regards.... :) None can steal away your own happiness..."
yapp.. look on the brighter side of life !.. BRIGHT.. im a PRIEST.. so my ELEMENT should be LIGHT.. i AM LIGHT.. light is a wonderful element ! dont you think so?? what is mine will be mine.. what is not mine.. no matter what i do... it wont be mine !.. live happily !.. no one can steal away my happiness from now.. i will give happiness to people from now.. what can i do?? this is my life ! ITS MY LIFE ! =D

im going to change myself.. and change everyone beside me.. my family is one of them.. HAHA.. my siblings? yapp.. my sister hate me so much.. i dont know why.. but i will change.. "mei.. what i do to you in the past.. pls forgive me.." if you are reading my blog.. be good ok.. good luck to you O's levels.. i believe you will pass with flying colours.. study hard and enter poly next time.. than good life.. dont be like me.. i dont know what im doing in the past.. im sorry.. and btw.. i know you are smoking sometimes with your girlfriend.. please dont be addicted to it.. smoking is bad for your health at your age.. its not COOL.. it SUCKS ok, i dont even think about smoking.. it sucks.. dont see other people than follow can??, dont DESTROY your beautiful life.. God has given you a BEAUTIFUL life.. LIVE it happily.. those things are bad.. dont follow.. DONT and NEVER follow the evil.. follow god.. the good way.. and yea.. of course i've not forgotton my promise.. i'll get you a brand new handphone under $1k ASAP when i've got a job. =)

as for my little troublemaker brother.. HAHA.. he's small.. but he likes to fight with me.. we both are born in the year of TIGER.. omg.. imagine.. 2 tigers in a house.. what will happen ?? LOL.. FIGHT LAH !! lol.. but i always control myself.. he's the one always started it first.. and at his age.. he's scolding those vulgaur (did i spell correctly?) words.. those bad words i mean.. he must have learnt them in schools.. omg.. i've live for 21 years+ and i hardly use those words in my life before.. but he?? haixxx.. ..i hope he dont grow up to be bad.. grow up to be like ME ok.. PRIEST.. i'll give you MORE COMPUTER GAMES to play.. YOU WILL TAKE THE CLASS PRIEST.. and FOLLOW GOD.. the GOOD SIDE..

i want to see my family good.. 2 brothers.. 1 sister.. although we always quarrel and fight.. but hopefully we all grow up to be good.. =)

as for myself.. i'll change too.. yupp.. both in-look and out-look.. well in-look are caring, helpful, kind, caring.. i will continue to be :)
as for out-look.. erm.. yea.. im going to change my specs.. this one so ugly.. and my hairstyle too :D HAHA.. i dun know what hairstyle la.. must ask my sister or any girls.. see what hairstyle they like or what is the best hairstyle these days.. LOL ! .. but thank god! he gave me a beautiful baby face.. :D without pimples =P .. that's why i look so small larh.. ZZZZZZ, i promise i'll change my look haha.. but of course.. I NEED MONEY to do all these.. so WORK/JOB COME FIRST !

burp!.. im sorry.. im so full now.. cause my mom make THIS BIG THING for me to eat.. LOOK !

A BIG BAO !! LOLs !!!!@!!~!@~@~!@

haha that was lame !.. =/

oh btw haha.. before taking this picture.. i can't find my phone!.. i normally put it under my pillow.. i lift up my pillow it was not there.. i searched my whole bed.. and floor.. i couldn't find.. nvm.. i decide to call it with my house phone.. LOL.. guess where is it ?????? NOPE its not on my hand.. its in the pillow casing inside.. i dun know how it went inside the pillow casing.. no wonder i lift up my pillow it was not there LOL !! i laughed at myself .. =D HAHA (:

ok while blogging.. this song Xiang Ting De Hua.. its not a sad song to me anymore.. haha.. im going to learn to sing this song (: its a happy song ?!!! ... dunno !?.. no idea.. "DIAO"-.O" but i've changed the song.. i've included few other songs.. randomly.. so each time you visit.. you'll get different song.. haha..

but i really enjoy blogging now.. haha.. everyday i'll spend few hours on blog :D
when blogs came out.. i think its a stupid to write your dairy and post on net..
very "bo liao".. but now.. i dont find it bo liao.. or what.. those of you who thinks that its bo liao.. or what.. you can try it.. try for a few days.. haha.. write down your happiness, sadness.. everything write down.. one day u'll get what i mean =) .. well well.. i dont mean EVERYDAY.. when you are free.. or you did something wrong today.. did something wonderful today.. just write down ! HAHA ;D of course i will continue writing.. but IF THERE"S ANY LAH.. if nothing than write what?? nothing of cause !.. in the future.. if.. i said IF.. i lost all my memories.. i can take a look at this blog.. how i am.. and what kind of person i am.. haha :D , and i also believe your loves one will want to see your blog.. what you do.. what are you.. so he/she can understand you better (:

k.. talking about this.. what about mine "her" ??.. i sent her a email earlier on.. wishes her O's Levels exams.. asked her to study hard and NEVER GIVE UP !.. she wont give up de.. she will also past with flying colours ! well for other things.. i dont wish to say any now.. look.. if she's really mine.. she will return to me one day.. right? if not.. than its not mine :D , well all the best to her.. heeehee.. v(".)v

wah.. i couldn't believe.. i blog for 2 hrs.. omg ? lol.. my life really changed at 12am.. those 21 years had past.. no more le.. no wonder people say.. 21st birthday is important birthday.. now i know why ?? haha.. OK GOOD JOB JACKSON.. KEEP IT UP !! :) :) :)

I DONT KNOW WHY I LIKE (: and =) and =D

JUST SMILE (:

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA =D

oh ya.. this remind me of Scared Warrior from DotA ..

" YEA HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE "

LOL LOL THIS CAN"T MAKE ME STOP LAUGHING LOL.. !

oh ya.. talking about DotA.. damn.. i tot nubkid is suppose to dota with me TODAY!! where have he gone LOL.. HAHA.. i bet he never see me online at 10pm.. so he went sleep .. or do other things.. HAHA.. but nvm lah.. LOL.. STOP IT WILL YA.. LOL

wow wow wow.. i typed so many words today.. i can write a compo. already.. LOL.. i bet its around 1k words ?? lol.. ok lah.. i think i have nothing to say now le.. now 4am LIAO !! OMG..

ITS ONLY 4am .. AND SO MANY WORDS.. i still have 20 MORE HOURS TO GO before another new day start !! HAHAHA..

I'll end here le.. =P

ok.. my blog.. from 1 visitor .. become 100+ le.. few people must have been viewing my blog.. haha.. i dont know who.. but nevermind.. i just want everyone here to live happily, follow the GOOD side, follow god.... stay happy.. stay strong.. remember god give you a life.. treasure it.. dont be like the past away jackson.. if you need any help.. or need anyone who can comfort you.. you can always look for me (:

i'll help all i can ! =)

ALL DE BEST TO YOU GUYS ! and GOOD DAY !

will blog later later later later in the day =P

byebye! =D

GOOD MORNING !

oh btw.. its raining here right NOW when i stop writing this blog !!

god's also crying for me :)

ok im back !! haha.. well after i've blog.. i went to sleep.. till 10am ?? yea.. 10 am !! hehe.. than came online.. btw i had a good sleep =P , so nubkid and me play DotA till late afternoon.. haha.. well alot funny things happen LOL.. make me laugh like an idiot LOL.. NOOB LAH NUBKID YOU LOL LOL STOP.. our gay heroes.. rhasta + vs .. trashed most of the match.. haha.. and LOL LOL LOL GameMaster: There will be a Battle.NET Server check in 10 minutes time. some of the ppl actually believed there is a server check in 10 mins LOL LOL HAHA.. well lame idea of mine :P , next OMG.. i was eating chips.. and you tell me " i see string (SHACKLE) i straight stun " LOL LOL STRING LOL LOL !!! and STRING CURTAIN LOL !, STOP IT WILL YA LOL. ! nah.. blackhole the curtain.. or maybe finger of death it.. since that guy's curtain keep flying on his face LOL. !, oh ya .. and i used silencer for 1 match.. scourge quite noob.. owned them with my random-ed silencer LOL with rubbish build on it LOL !

hahahahahaa.. attack speed siao items ! was funny.. NW tried to backstab me.. but i hit him and curse him.. until he left 30% health.. i used my silence.. he can't shukuchi nor time-lapse.. in the end he died LOL !, so clever to backstab a silencer, NOOB NW :P !

Greatest Day of DotA ! YAY !!! :D

ok next thing is.. what i wanna say is about her.. yap.. i use in red colour.. cause she had hurted me so hard in the heart.. the scar will never gone.. its like thousand needles poking in my heart.. im going to remember this forever.. till now im still hurt-ed.. the scar will never gone.. haiz.. why she did this to me?? from the beginning i know her.. she's a very nice girl.. very cute.. very guai also.. very kind.. very caring.. very helpful.. just like me.. but i didn't know she's acting.. she's just flirting with me.. what she wants is love here.. and love there.. in the end alot of guys fall in her trap.. im one of them.. i dont know what's the point of her doing this.. maybe she need love cause her parents dont give her.. but whatever is it.. but she's hurting alot of ppl already including me.. she actually made alot of people sad.. haha.. im one of them.. all she know was to say "sorrie".. i've forgiven her ALOT of times.. i bear with it.. i think she's going to be mine.. but nah.. sad to say.. NO.. she's just scamming love out there to all the guys.. very pro i can say.. even i also can't see.. i wonder why.. haix.. such a good girl.. will do such stuffs.. so i learnt my lessons.. never fall into these kind of trap anymore.. i've been scammed before in games? yea in games.. alot more of scamming.. but now its LOVE scamming LOL !, really feel very sad lah.. she clever lor.. like that also can.. i do things for her.. she say scare cousin see.. scare this scare that LOL !, please lah.. if you really love me.. what's that to be scared of ?? scared of your REAL STEAD sees it ?? ask her do this.. dun want.. do that also dont want.. i dont know she's up to la.. maybe abit bo liao.. or empty-minded.. so fun.. taking few relationship at the same time.. stepping on dozen of boats where she only got 2 legs.. haha.. heng la.. my boat is damaged abit.. but im trying to swim away le.. if not soon she'll destroyed all those boat and left one boat there.. kk fine lor.. i retreat lor.. like in a battlefield.. all fighting.. so she could choose the best guy among the battlefield.. haha.. i dunno what she do this for la.. but hurt alot of ppl lor.. any guy went to her.. chat chat chat.. few days.. dear here dear there liao.. haha even her so called "god brother" also call her dear.. than alot more la.. this dear.. another one say.. he will love her and won't give up.. haha.. another one same also.. what will love her till the end of life.. than recently only got what.. her real boyfriend or what.. i also never heard of that name la.. so many darling here darling there.. i tell you hor.. if one day she is in danger or what.. i bet not only 1 guy will go and see her.. i bet its dozen of guys.. and all quarreling LOL !.. "hey she's my dear" , "hey SHE'S MINE" , "HEY i knew her since i was a baby" , "hey.. here hey there la".. than soon will all fight ! wa.. like some show sia.. so pro sia.. i think who reading my blog.. got any director anot?? can make new movie or show leh.. i write you script.. you find actor go and act LOL !, like some kind of show.. a humble girl.. actually a love scammer.. going around finding guys to flirt or waiting for guys to go to her.. and be their bf.. than after this.. get another one.. so pro.. till now i didn't know how she did it.. maybe morning this guy in his school.. afternoon another guy.. at night me.. than midnight another guy.. than morning another guy LOL ! so pro.. i dunno how she do it la.. but i know la.. she got so many dear around.. im also a victim !.. damn sia.. why i fall into this kind of trap... -.-".. well i dunno lah.. maybe she's choosing lor.. but hard to choose also so many at a time.. so in the end i dunno lah.. its her problem.. maybe she'll marry all the guys and get a dozen of husband.. LOL ! first in history !.. haiz.. now thinking back.. quite sad lah.. but i wont cry.. haha.. not worth it la for this kind of people out there in this world.. thinking back.. haha.. what?? some of the things she say to me lah .. "yes dear.. i really really really love you alot".. " dear dont leave me, (start to sob) " .. " promise me dear.. not to leave me.. " .. " i love you more and more each day " .. " miee love my dear dear lots lots too.. mauckz Ai Si ni le.. " .. " dear i love you too.. i really do love you .. muackz " .. " i believe you.. i trust you.. i accepted you.. dear.. i hab already promise you.. dear.. dun you remember .. " .. still got what ah?? oh ya best is this " i wont leave you de.. i promise you le.. dun you remember our promise ?" .. best sia.. LOL im laughing at this line already.. when she say that to me.. i was full of life.. happiness.. very dunno what to say.. but now.. LOL ! ALL crap sia.. she only say and say.. got what shoot what out.. damn pro.. no wonder so many guys fall in it lah.. i dunno she use these line to how many guys liao.... got girls reading my blog ma?? can tell me .. how a girl.. handle so many guy at one time sia.. WITHOUT those guys knowing.. HOW?? must be damn pro lor.. this month get this.. next month get that.. haha.. but at first i tot she's true to me.. i tot i'll be with her with my rest of my life.. she didn't annonouced that we are "officially" together.. giving alot of reason.. "scare parents know" , "scare cousins know" coz she got to concentrate on studies.. please lah.. concentrate LAN JIAO! so i had to secretly love her.. LOL.. stupid sia me.. heng i running away le.. if not later she announce his real stead.. i also will blur.. by that time i will jump of building or killed myself liao LOL ! haiz.. why i so stupid to fall in such traps.. wei shen me wo jiang ben dan !! AHHH !! STUPID JACKSON !! why waste your few years time on a bomb that its going to explode soon?! .. i also dunno mah.. haiz.. i tot i have found part of my life already.. im prepared to do everything le.. just for her.. but.. i couldn't believe what happen.. all my dream all my goals was destroyed by her.. i want to give her good life.. full of happiness.. but she treat me like that.. that's it lah.. maybe god wanna let me learn.. dont trust people too easily.. i always trust people too easily.. see they all sheep skin.. kind kind.. but actually its a F**KING wolf wearing a sheep coat.. i have alot of times like this le.. that's why i stupid.. always kena scammed also dunno lor.. so here.. i learnt my lesson.. i trust people too easily.. coz i belong to the good side.. try to help them.. and so on.. but didn't know la.. kena bluff/scammed/hurted.. i really dunno what to say lor.. its just like a bubble.. BURSTED.. boom.. vanish into the air.. haha.. just like that lah.. i hope ALL guys reading this.. becareful lor.. for those single out there.. just becareful lor.. dun see girls so attracting or what.. than go.. you might be in a trap full of spikes.. if wan find a girl.. find a girl that really loves you.. love till she wanna be with you everywhere.. everytime.. every minute.. every second.. like glue like that.. stick to you forever liao.. haha.. aiya just dun trust ppl so easily lor.. who knows.. today you know someone.. tmr the someone killed you.. this kind of thing happen in this world so many times le.. so dun fall in this kind of trap lah.. try to protect yourself first lor.. well you'll never know one lor.. its very hard to tell lah.. sometimes ppl see me good.. they also keep away from me.. coz they dun trust ppl so easily.. haha.. but im not lah.. i wont hurt people.. i kena hurt-ed alot of times in my life le.. i know HOW it feel being hurted.. the feeling is not nice lor.. its even worst than sicks.. most sick can cure.. but this kind of feeling.. how to cure?? forever there lor.. i remember once.. got this girl.. or dunno who told me.. she also have hole in the heart.. she say good haha.. i asked her why good leh?? she said got troubles.. all the troubles will come out from the hole in the heart.. haha.. i was like huh?? lol... laugh lah.. coz i also got hole in the heart.. but this kind of feeling.. cannot cure one lor.. see doctor useless.. whatever you do also useless lah.. i really dunno what to do now lor.. find another one?? LOL.. i dont have the mood to find anymore le.. i might be single forever.. just like one of my friend.. he was totally right.. girls are craps.. waste of time.. waste money.. why not live alone.. haha.. i told him.. will get very lonely if no accompany lor.. and im already so lonely.. if i dun find.. than what i do?? lol.. sian now.. kena love scam.. haiz.. love her so much till wanna give up everything just for her.. now become like that.. if it was you.. u won't sad meh??.. you sure wanna kill her.. haha.. but i wont la.. im good.. yes i tot of giving her a knock in the head with a hammer or what.. to wake her up.. wake up her idea la.. what's she's doing now.. lol.. still flirting with other guys.. but i wont harm her la.. she might have her own reason doing this.. but its bad lor.. she's in the evil side.. im in the good side.. she's trying to lure me to the bad side.. to her bomb.. and explode it.. so im there quarreling with other guys of her.. but i dunno what she thinks lah.. she always dont wanna tell me.. ask her this.. she act blur.. act nothing happen.. act and act lor.. no wonder i also fall into it.. whole day act and act.. till now she dunno got how many guys liao lah.. i hope she will stop lor.. really hurting those guys.. haha.. later those guys get sad and get so upset that her life might in danger.. i dont know lah.. i just say what i wanna say here lor.. and blog it down.. i wanna share with people.. what kind of human are there in this world.. bad.. good.. alot more lor.. if all human are the same.. we won't have News .. we dont have newspaper liao.. all so good.. haha.. but sad lah.. this world is full of bad full of good.. haiz.. seems like now bad people are more than the good one lor.. cannot liao lah.. i must find good people together ! those bad one.. i'll try to bring them to the good side.. follow god man.. why follow evil.. evil SUCKS ok.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. i keep saying i dunno la.. i really dunno lor.. i mean.. this kind of thing happen like that.. u also will blur one lor.. sure stunned.. but i dunno what's wrong with her lah.. if she never do all these.. she's a very nice girl lor.. but i really dunno why she did all these for lor.. like very fun to her like that.. accepting so many relationship at one time.. so she's not lonely.. every sec every min.. she got someone.. well.. she might be really empty-minded lor.. sometimes mind came to empty.. den dunno what to do.. than ppl say "can be my gf" .. than she say "okok lorh".. empty minded till she forget she got few relationship already.. i dunno what the hell she doing la.. but she will hurt alot of people lor if this continues.. in the end either all will quarrel.. or she and her REAL stead will say byebye to those guys she got.. haha.. they 2 on a mission ah?? they hate guys so much?? so ask the girl lure guys.. than her guy will kill all later when they all guys meet together.. LOL ! HO SAY AH !.. like show sia LOL.. im laughing now.. like movie.. or what sia....! seriously got any director here or not.. can make a movie leh.. i support sia.. this kind of movie sure alot ppl see one.. LOL.. now thinking back what she said to me.. i tot is real lor.. but what i see with my own eyes.. what i hear from other people about her.. haiz.. really hurt alot lor.. those words seems to be TRUE.. but now.. its like bubble with heart shape.. so lovely.. in the end BURSTED.. BOOM.. a bomb instead of bubble .. YOU HAVE BEEN TRAPPED! .. LOL ! thinking back.. i was so stupid.. so obvious actually.. but i couldn't figure out.. kena spell-ed by her i also dunno.. fall into her black spells.. well just like i say.. i dunno lah.. one day she might come back to me and say she wanna be together with me.. LOL.. sorry lor.. i won't fall into this stupid trap again.. unless you do something about it lah.. knn.. you got so many guys.. all you love.. and all you want.. you think you what ?? super girl?? or siao.. im so pissed with you.. i wont fall into this trap again lah.. unless you do something about it lah.. or ur parents.. or anyone who can help you lah.. see you like good good.. but actually lying all the day and acting all the day nia.. sad sia.. why you must be like that?? haven grow up ah?? or you doing this on purpose just for someone?? or you kena those evil spells already.. haiz.. i feel so pity for you sia.. but anyway if you read my blog.. than just read la.. its all my words out from my F**king hurted heart just because of YOU. i had a good heart.. but knowing you.. and knowing the outcome now.. really hurts me alot.. you wont know lah.. u must be "sorrie" "sorrie" or very happily "WAHAHA fall in my trap WOOHOO" .. i dunno lah you.. do whatever you like lah.. but i hope you dont hurt anymore guys out there la.. leave them alone.. how can u love all at the same time.. go and pick your real prince that suits you lor.. and if you have got that prince.. please lah.. stop seeing other guys.. or stop flirting lor.. as you know guys will easily hooked up by girls one lor.. u know u have a stead already.. u still go and make more.. i dunno what to say to you lor.. come on la wake up your idea can?.. if you never do all these in your life.. today you wont be like that lor.. i dunno why lah.. maybe its your hobby or what lor.. i feel very pity for you sia.. i feel like bringing you back from the evil side.. and i'll teach you the good way side.. yupp.. im a priest.. im here to cure and protect and heal all those who are in trouble.. dont worry.. i wont hurt you.. haha.. good people dont hurt those innocent people around.. but whatever la.. if you just need me.. just say lor.. i'll give you my powers of light.. and i'll resurrect you and give you a new life again.. but that's is if you give me the chance lah.. if not than forget it lor..

wa.. i typed so many words again.. ZZZ today really a unforgotable day lor.. haha.. those text in red.. are my scar left in my heart because of her lah.. if she see this blog.. i wanna tell her " YOU HAVE HURTED ME SO DEEPLY VERY VERY VERY VERY X 10000000 MUCH " i want everyone to read it.. including myself next time.. including everyone in this world.. my families.. my frens.. my loved one in the future.. what's happening.. haha.. ok lah.. now omg.. 6pm + liao.. wasted few hours on blog agian.. haha.. but its worth it lor.. at least i throw those stupid dirty scars left in my heart out.. ok lah.. next time than share more of my scars left in my heart.. all these are just little only lor.. haha.. looks long.. but there are alot more lah.. i guess i'll go have my dinner now.. its 6pm+ le.. continue to blog later at night if can lor..

To be continued if can...

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